Monday, October 13, 2008

Crazy Weekend

Wow What a crazy weekend I had! This was my b-day weekend. I saw lots of people. Had a nice calm birthday celebration. But like they say the small things in life are the ones that you fall in love with. My besties did a mini surprise birthday cake for me in school. Which was wonderful and amazing to spend with her on my actual birthday October 10, 2008 Friday. I turned 17. I thouhgt I was going to stay 16 forever. I have to get use to being 17 now lol =] And someone really special came to visit me. Now we are more than just friends. I'm glad I'm his girlfriend. Because I'm really falling for him big time. I hope we last together. 10-12-08 K & A yayy lol =]

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Hard Times..

Why some people need to go through soo much while others try to comprend different experinces and wish to be in their place to know how it feels. One of my friend is going through alot now. I dont know how to help her. Shes going through alot. Sometimes it makes me think if she chose this. If it was all her fault. If she just wanted attention this way. She wants me to give her my home. But i'm afraid I'm going to end up getting tired of her; because of her actions. I dont want her to take advantage of the oppurnity that me and my mom are going to give her. I dont know if offering her my home is going to bring her any solution to this or make her feel better; less streeful. I want her to be happy. Its senior year, we all want to have a good time. All of us are working. And its making us get more stressful and sad. We all said we were going to have a blast in senior year and it doesnt feel not even an inch of that. I get depressed when they are nto happy. I knwo its not my problem and I shouldnt get sad because they are. But I cant help it. Its like something its bothering me. I cant ignore it. It follows me. It makes me think about them til it gets me sad. Just to think that I cant help them or do anything about it; gets me mad and sad.

I hope my best friends get happy again. I dont want them to be sad or stressful.

Just be happpy.....