Crazy Dayz

October 27, 2008

Cant find the words to tell her how i feel. to her that it hurts. to be lonely. to be without her. so close yet soo far. dont kno whats goin on. confused emotions. i like him or i luv him. gettin mad for slapin him. shouldnt get between u guys. now i regret every thing i said on friday n dis week. that saturday was not my day. please understand me. i'm a INSECURE n confused child. please hold on to me. dis is when i most need you. neva give up on me. dis is when i;m diein n i need cure. i need you to heel me fast n quick before time is up. Please go get me. i deserve another chance. dont leave me alone in this ugly mess. i;'m gonna be waitin for you. hope u come before noon...

October 29, 2088

This day was a mess. Sitin there n lookin at her. she doesnt give a fuck so y should i? havin too much pride is no crime. if she can do it then so can i. still that sad gurl. lost n without hope. come n save me...

October 30, 2008

She came n saved me. when i most needed her. she saved me before my death, before my last breath. Today was the end of lies. the end of cries. I'm saved! they love me. they still there. with bruises n bumps but i'm here. to say sorry n i love u. u neva gave up on me. thnak you. u are a true friend. u said sorri n wish dis neva happen. me 2. plz neva goo away again. cause i dont kno if i could handle it next time...

Today, November 2, 2008

Had fun with the besties on Halloween. Went to the movies yesterday, took me S.A.T's on saturday. wish me good luck that i got a better score than last time lol well yea thats wat happen.
i wish khriz was here. so i could hug him. i miss him so much. 10-11-08

Crazy Weekend

Wow What a crazy weekend I had! This was my b-day weekend. I saw lots of people. Had a nice calm birthday celebration. But like they say the small things in life are the ones that you fall in love with. My besties did a mini surprise birthday cake for me in school. Which was wonderful and amazing to spend with her on my actual birthday October 10, 2008 Friday. I turned 17. I thouhgt I was going to stay 16 forever. I have to get use to being 17 now lol =] And someone really special came to visit me. Now we are more than just friends. I'm glad I'm his girlfriend. Because I'm really falling for him big time. I hope we last together. 10-12-08 K & A yayy lol =]

Hard Times..

Why some people need to go through soo much while others try to comprend different experinces and wish to be in their place to know how it feels. One of my friend is going through alot now. I dont know how to help her. Shes going through alot. Sometimes it makes me think if she chose this. If it was all her fault. If she just wanted attention this way. She wants me to give her my home. But i'm afraid I'm going to end up getting tired of her; because of her actions. I dont want her to take advantage of the oppurnity that me and my mom are going to give her. I dont know if offering her my home is going to bring her any solution to this or make her feel better; less streeful. I want her to be happy. Its senior year, we all want to have a good time. All of us are working. And its making us get more stressful and sad. We all said we were going to have a blast in senior year and it doesnt feel not even an inch of that. I get depressed when they are nto happy. I knwo its not my problem and I shouldnt get sad because they are. But I cant help it. Its like something its bothering me. I cant ignore it. It follows me. It makes me think about them til it gets me sad. Just to think that I cant help them or do anything about it; gets me mad and sad.

I hope my best friends get happy again. I dont want them to be sad or stressful.

Just be happpy.....