Joe Arroyo y la verdad - La rebelion

Fruko y sus Tesos El Preso

Oscar D'Leon (LLoraras)

Titile of a Play/Movie

A Clockwork Orange By: Stanley Kubrick

Thoughts

Theres so much going now this month. First, I been craving to have intercourse but I am so afraid of loosing something that will never come back. I don't know how to address it and as each day passes by, I am dying to have intercourse with my boyfriend. He gives me my space, tells me we are not in a hurry. But then he kisses me one way and say the other. Who gets boyfriends? Anyhow, we been spending alot of time together, which is good and can be bad as well. I dont wanna get tired of him. I feel as if after the day he got mad at the guy he has been acting more careful, more friendly. He calls, sees and even dreams about me more now. Weird.

Friends: Me and blanca are getting veryy close. I am starting to like soccer alot seriously.

I have notice that I am more comfortable typing that writing, dont know why.

I have nothing to say, I am getting sleepy for sure.

Ugh tomorrow class then work, lots of hrs n kids. Oh well...I am getting pay lots of money.

JUST YOU AND I --- RICKY BLAZE

Drake - Over

I will always know I love you.

I love this song. I am crying right now. Sitting here in my bed. Its 1:50 p.m. So much thoughts running in my head.

Lyrics from "Little House" By: Amanda Seyfrield

I love this place
But its haunted without you
My tired heart
Is beating so slow
Our hearts sing less
Than we wanted
We wanted
Our hearts sing 'cause
We do not know
We do not know

To light the night
To help us grow
To help us grow
It is not said
I always know

You can catch me
Dont you run
Dont you run
If you live another day
In this happy little house
The fire's here to stay

To light the night
To make us grow
To make us grow
It is not said
I always know

Please don't make a fuss
It won't go away
The wonder of it all
The wonder that I made
I am here to stay

I am here to stay

Stay


I love this song officially from today May 20, 2010 at 1:59 A.M.

I want my boyfriend to play less games and show more that he cares. That he cares for me more. I want him to be more romantic. I want him to be more affectionate above everything. I secretly want to marry him. I want him to be the only man in my life. My first for everything. Its gonna be hard, yes I know, but whats love without a fight. I want him to love me the same way I do and will. Its hard to know if you are going to be with that one person for the rest of your life. You start looking at everyone around you. Single, flirting, having intercourse with random ppl, thats the life they call the good life. But is that the life I really want to? Is that life gonna fulfill me as Melissa? Is it going to make me proud of myself? Is it going to make me feel less or bring down my dignity? Will I look at myself in the mirror and cry?


I love you. I don't care if you have a few pounds more. Fat or skinny I love you. I love you for the person you are. You may not show as much affection as I wish you do, but you show commitment, you show care, you show liability and truthness. I love you for that.

Thoughts

I may never know my potential or my strengths. But life is a hunt. I am sitting home with my laptop in my lap, writing a paper about my life for me, not for anyone else, until I run out of things to say. I just finished watching The Time Traveler's Wife and it left me thinking so I started to type. Tears came out of eyes and soon ideas followed, this is my life...

Valentines Day

Today was so special. I spend the day with my boyfriend. We went to eat at Chillies. Then to see the Valentines Day movie. After the movie, we went to his house. I was waiting in the car when I see him with this huge red bag. The bag said I love you filled with a huge white teddy bear and a decorated small bear with a flower inside. I was like AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. (smile) I kept smiling and smelling the teddy bear. He sprayed my favorite cologne on it. It smells so good. I told him I now have someone to sleep with.

As much as I wanted to avoid the sex conversation I couldnt. I asked him if he wanted to. He said no, lets wait a year. Before today, I have tried to make love to him but he keeps refusing. He tells me he wants to wait a year at least. I feel insecured about it. So it hasnt been an issue. The only thing is that I dont know how to control my hormones. They are driving me crazy! I feel like I want to so bad some times then the other, I feel like I wanna wait until I'm 20 at least (I'm 18 now turning 19 in a couple of months). I been waiting all my life, whats another 1 or 2 years more? Thats what my boyfriend tells me. I love him. And this is the first valentines where I am actually in love literally! I love you Bryan Colon Rodriguez!

Random..

Dont look at me like that, please, dont do it... I really want u to be there but there are others circumstances that are out of our hands that doesnt let us to let u there... Im really sorry, but remember that i will love u always... I know u wont understand this, but i hope ur heart could translate what i feel right n...ow... There will be something better ahead for u.. i know that...