Sunday, February 14, 2010

Valentines Day

Today was so special. I spend the day with my boyfriend. We went to eat at Chillies. Then to see the Valentines Day movie. After the movie, we went to his house. I was waiting in the car when I see him with this huge red bag. The bag said I love you filled with a huge white teddy bear and a decorated small bear with a flower inside. I was like AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. (smile) I kept smiling and smelling the teddy bear. He sprayed my favorite cologne on it. It smells so good. I told him I now have someone to sleep with.

As much as I wanted to avoid the sex conversation I couldnt. I asked him if he wanted to. He said no, lets wait a year. Before today, I have tried to make love to him but he keeps refusing. He tells me he wants to wait a year at least. I feel insecured about it. So it hasnt been an issue. The only thing is that I dont know how to control my hormones. They are driving me crazy! I feel like I want to so bad some times then the other, I feel like I wanna wait until I'm 20 at least (I'm 18 now turning 19 in a couple of months). I been waiting all my life, whats another 1 or 2 years more? Thats what my boyfriend tells me. I love him. And this is the first valentines where I am actually in love literally! I love you Bryan Colon Rodriguez!